Friday, March 9, 2012
Trust. It's Difficult, but Absolutely Necessary
There's always going to be a time of difficulty. Choose to overcome it, and you will succeed; wallow in doubt, and you'll get nowhere. I know you can do it. Believe you have it in you to do great things. Believe you are a warrior, and you will fight strong. The funny thing is, sometimes overcoming, just means keeping silent. We don't always have to say what we think. A battle cry doesn't scare off everyone. Imagine if an army went to war in absolute silence? Intimidating, I dare say, but extremely powerful.
Monday, December 5, 2011
Crying Since Last Tuesday.
This week has been tremendously chaotic.
IB slammed a bunch of homework in my face at the beginning of October/November... and hasn't stopped since. It's like an avalanche of projects and essays have overflowed into my life.... burying me deep underneath its weight.
I put all this effort into writing essays, and they've been torn apart and given low grades. I think the issue, was me going into it, expecting a lot... and getting little out of myself, as that is what seems so apparent. Amongst getting back essays covered in red ink, I've also been spending my time volunteering for Key Club activities... getting involved in the community. That's been a real great experience, and usually during whatever task it is, I'm happy and content. I'm where I want to be. Then... I get home... and I realize that I could have spent that time doing homework... or practicing my piano.
This week, I only got to practice my piano once. It didn't last long. I was super frustrated. I've not only let work get the best of me, but emotionally I've been distraught. Friendships are tearing me apart... and not in the usual sense. I'd rather not explain.
It was hard. I spent a good five days tense and angry. Since last Tuesday, I've gone home balling my eyes out to my Mumsie and Pops.
Then... come Saturday night... .and then Sunday night, I just broke down and told my Mum a ton of stuff that was bothering me. It was great. I cried a ton. Hahaha.
But you see, as soon as I did that, all the good stuff started to happen.
And God had to tell me something three times before it finally sunk in.
First.... my parent's advice:
a.) Don't lose track of the things you love most.
b.) I should never enter/leave a friendship/relationship feeling sorry for the person
Second... the Dinkles' advice:
a.) He gave me some tips on handling how the teachers grade my work, and how I can progress in a way that's good for the both of us.
b.) In short, I need to stick to what I love.... that I will excel no matter what.
Thirdly.... my piano teacher: Noftle's advice:
a.) God's blessed me with some incredible talents, and I shouldn't forget the things that I love. It's good to prioritize... and to just not forget the things that I love most.
b.) Piano Practicing Tips for People With Little Or Next To No Time :)
What was amazing was the fact that I hadn't told the Dinkles and Noftle (esp. Noftle!) any of the immense details that were stressing me out... and yet their advice covered it all. It was all deeply motivating and encouraging. There's a ton of details from all of these inspirational people written within the pages of my diary...
But the point of this blog was to encourage you.
Maybe you're going through some unbearable things... maybe you've booked up your calendar with a lot of stuff, and on top of all the work, emotional friendships are tying you down....
Just don't forget the people and the things you love most.
It hurts me to say this, but I think that over all... There was just a simple line hidden within the caverns of my complex brain :P (psht, hahaha. complex. HA. Emotion wise, yes!)... a line I had simply forgotten:
Follow your dreams. Love. Forever... love.
I knew what it meant to be loved... but I had forgotten to keep loving.
When I wrote that line in my diary... I almost started crying again.
Even during this busy Christmas season, we can forget what's most important.
Don't.
Never let it happen.
Always remember the things you love most.
IB slammed a bunch of homework in my face at the beginning of October/November... and hasn't stopped since. It's like an avalanche of projects and essays have overflowed into my life.... burying me deep underneath its weight.
I put all this effort into writing essays, and they've been torn apart and given low grades. I think the issue, was me going into it, expecting a lot... and getting little out of myself, as that is what seems so apparent. Amongst getting back essays covered in red ink, I've also been spending my time volunteering for Key Club activities... getting involved in the community. That's been a real great experience, and usually during whatever task it is, I'm happy and content. I'm where I want to be. Then... I get home... and I realize that I could have spent that time doing homework... or practicing my piano.
This week, I only got to practice my piano once. It didn't last long. I was super frustrated. I've not only let work get the best of me, but emotionally I've been distraught. Friendships are tearing me apart... and not in the usual sense. I'd rather not explain.
It was hard. I spent a good five days tense and angry. Since last Tuesday, I've gone home balling my eyes out to my Mumsie and Pops.
Then... come Saturday night... .and then Sunday night, I just broke down and told my Mum a ton of stuff that was bothering me. It was great. I cried a ton. Hahaha.
But you see, as soon as I did that, all the good stuff started to happen.
And God had to tell me something three times before it finally sunk in.
First.... my parent's advice:
a.) Don't lose track of the things you love most.
b.) I should never enter/leave a friendship/relationship feeling sorry for the person
Second... the Dinkles' advice:
a.) He gave me some tips on handling how the teachers grade my work, and how I can progress in a way that's good for the both of us.
b.) In short, I need to stick to what I love.... that I will excel no matter what.
Thirdly.... my piano teacher: Noftle's advice:
a.) God's blessed me with some incredible talents, and I shouldn't forget the things that I love. It's good to prioritize... and to just not forget the things that I love most.
b.) Piano Practicing Tips for People With Little Or Next To No Time :)
What was amazing was the fact that I hadn't told the Dinkles and Noftle (esp. Noftle!) any of the immense details that were stressing me out... and yet their advice covered it all. It was all deeply motivating and encouraging. There's a ton of details from all of these inspirational people written within the pages of my diary...
But the point of this blog was to encourage you.
Maybe you're going through some unbearable things... maybe you've booked up your calendar with a lot of stuff, and on top of all the work, emotional friendships are tying you down....
Just don't forget the people and the things you love most.
It hurts me to say this, but I think that over all... There was just a simple line hidden within the caverns of my complex brain :P (psht, hahaha. complex. HA. Emotion wise, yes!)... a line I had simply forgotten:
Follow your dreams. Love. Forever... love.
I knew what it meant to be loved... but I had forgotten to keep loving.
When I wrote that line in my diary... I almost started crying again.
Even during this busy Christmas season, we can forget what's most important.
Don't.
Never let it happen.
Always remember the things you love most.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
I Owe You A Post.
I apologize for my lack of writing on this blog...but it's because I've started a new one: http://decidedlysmiling.blogspot.com/
Most of my writing, both casual and formal, is now done there.
But, you see, today, I thought I'd rummage through my old blog....and write.
I'm not too sure what I should talk about though.
I've been going through a great life journey.
I've been in this stance....where I am so struck by awe at the glory of God.
I mean; take a look around you. Look at the sky, the earth, the flowers, the dirt. The trees....they stand so tall. Look at the people in your life.
God created them.
And we have to love them...whether we want to or not.
To be quite honest with you, I have struggled with my faith over the past few months.
But...then all this hit me.
Only a beautiful, supernatural, loving God could have created all this.
Not science....not a dead man....but an awesome God!
Regarding these people that we have to love whether we want to or not...well......what has also struck me is that we are here for such a short time, in the grand scheme of things....and in reality....these people who don't like us....these annoying friends who don't care.......well.......the best we can do is pray for them. Because we are all just struggling to get through this rat race called life.
We all have problems.
We all have issues that we must face.
We're all, to some degree, afraid.
I wish we could all move past every hindrance just to be able to love one another.
Because...to some extent, we are all so equal...we are all just the same.
I'm struggling with a lot of friendships.....
But I've realized....it doesn't matter how many friends you have...but the quality of friendship you have with just a few.
And I've realized that my God is so great...so big....so mighty......He'd move mountains for any of us.
His awesome, worthy, power, can change anything in a split second.
Just take a look around you.
He made all this.
The way I see it....if He can make all this......He'll make a way for us to see the sunshine, in whatever storm we're in.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9q6o4sbndVE&feature=feedf
check that vid out. ;)
Most of my writing, both casual and formal, is now done there.
But, you see, today, I thought I'd rummage through my old blog....and write.
I'm not too sure what I should talk about though.
I've been going through a great life journey.
I've been in this stance....where I am so struck by awe at the glory of God.
I mean; take a look around you. Look at the sky, the earth, the flowers, the dirt. The trees....they stand so tall. Look at the people in your life.
God created them.
And we have to love them...whether we want to or not.
To be quite honest with you, I have struggled with my faith over the past few months.
But...then all this hit me.
Only a beautiful, supernatural, loving God could have created all this.
Not science....not a dead man....but an awesome God!
Regarding these people that we have to love whether we want to or not...well......what has also struck me is that we are here for such a short time, in the grand scheme of things....and in reality....these people who don't like us....these annoying friends who don't care.......well.......the best we can do is pray for them. Because we are all just struggling to get through this rat race called life.
We all have problems.
We all have issues that we must face.
We're all, to some degree, afraid.
I wish we could all move past every hindrance just to be able to love one another.
Because...to some extent, we are all so equal...we are all just the same.
I'm struggling with a lot of friendships.....
But I've realized....it doesn't matter how many friends you have...but the quality of friendship you have with just a few.
And I've realized that my God is so great...so big....so mighty......He'd move mountains for any of us.
His awesome, worthy, power, can change anything in a split second.
Just take a look around you.
He made all this.
The way I see it....if He can make all this......He'll make a way for us to see the sunshine, in whatever storm we're in.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9q6o4sbndVE&feature=feedf
check that vid out. ;)
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Tough Stuff
"If someone slaps you on one check, offer the other cheek also." Luke 6:29
Okay. So....starting from this verse i guess....maybe a little before, I read on through the chapter. It discusses the necessity of love and how we must push on, spreading the love. Jesus tells us that we need to keep on loving....no matter the circumstance.
THE NEXT DAY ( I read that last night!!! The next day = today)
I WAS TESTED.
No joke.
See I was tested with someone from school who I'm not even friends with...she was demeaning and bothered me to a T. You know...one of those preppy girls who just needs Jesus.
Well.
I came home crying to be quite honest....and told the story to my parents...half way through realizing I had just read about dealing with this sort of thing LAST NIGHT.
Goodness me.
See....the dealio is, turning my cheek from this, probably one of the hardest things to do.
Here's the rest of the verses I read:
27 “But to you who are listening I say: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, 28 bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. 29 If someone slaps you on one cheek, turn to them the other also. If someone takes your coat, do not withhold your shirt from them. 30 Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. 31 Do to others as you would have them do to you.
32 “If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners love those who love them. 33 And if you do good to those who are good to you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners do that. 34 And if you lend to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners, expecting to be repaid in full. 35 But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be children of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. 36 Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful.
Very very very very arduous.
But encouraging...because God's just revealed to me that He's here in the midst of a silence. He's here with me.
He's here.
And His love will carry on.
I wrote a song because of this.
Oh how God's love is so relentless.
Okay. So....starting from this verse i guess....maybe a little before, I read on through the chapter. It discusses the necessity of love and how we must push on, spreading the love. Jesus tells us that we need to keep on loving....no matter the circumstance.
THE NEXT DAY ( I read that last night!!! The next day = today)
I WAS TESTED.
No joke.
See I was tested with someone from school who I'm not even friends with...she was demeaning and bothered me to a T. You know...one of those preppy girls who just needs Jesus.
Well.
I came home crying to be quite honest....and told the story to my parents...half way through realizing I had just read about dealing with this sort of thing LAST NIGHT.
Goodness me.
See....the dealio is, turning my cheek from this, probably one of the hardest things to do.
Here's the rest of the verses I read:
27 “But to you who are listening I say: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, 28 bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. 29 If someone slaps you on one cheek, turn to them the other also. If someone takes your coat, do not withhold your shirt from them. 30 Give to everyone who asks you, and if anyone takes what belongs to you, do not demand it back. 31 Do to others as you would have them do to you.
32 “If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners love those who love them. 33 And if you do good to those who are good to you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners do that. 34 And if you lend to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners, expecting to be repaid in full. 35 But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be children of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. 36 Be merciful, just as your Father is merciful.
Very very very very arduous.
But encouraging...because God's just revealed to me that He's here in the midst of a silence. He's here with me.
He's here.
And His love will carry on.
I wrote a song because of this.
Oh how God's love is so relentless.
Friday, November 5, 2010
What is Love?
Just thought I'd share something that's on my heart.....
The fact that....love.
Love is such a strong word.
Love is everlasting. Love never lets go.
Wanna know something else that's strong? This verse.
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonour others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves. Love never fails."
1Cor 13:4-8
It's just amazing....that the only everlasting love we are guaranteed to receive...forevermore....is the love of God.
So maybe you think I'm talking crap.
I'm not. I'm completely convinced that God will love through imperfections...through mistakes....through anything.
He doesn't care what we've done.....
and that....that's just epically amazing in my eyes. :)
It's comforting to know that through awful circumstances, the Big Guy upstairs is smiling down at me...ready to embrace me...ready to listen to me rant and rave about everything that's gone wrong in my day.
See...this love...this real love....it's none of that:
i luv you
i luv u
ilu
I (heart) U
junk.
It's simply...and deeply...
I love you.
The fact that....love.
Love is such a strong word.
Love is everlasting. Love never lets go.
Wanna know something else that's strong? This verse.
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonour others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves. Love never fails."
1Cor 13:4-8
It's just amazing....that the only everlasting love we are guaranteed to receive...forevermore....is the love of God.
So maybe you think I'm talking crap.
I'm not. I'm completely convinced that God will love through imperfections...through mistakes....through anything.
He doesn't care what we've done.....
and that....that's just epically amazing in my eyes. :)
It's comforting to know that through awful circumstances, the Big Guy upstairs is smiling down at me...ready to embrace me...ready to listen to me rant and rave about everything that's gone wrong in my day.
See...this love...this real love....it's none of that:
i luv you
i luv u
ilu
I (heart) U
junk.
It's simply...and deeply...
I love you.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
The Father's Love...
Sometimes not living up to our own expectations, expands our peripheral vision....we see things that we can change to benefit us...things that were blind to our eyes are now being seen by our hearts...it benefits our future. Its recognizing that what we haven't done...can be changed....
That it's never too late...
Our naked eye sees the outer object. Our heart sees the circumstance inside and out.
It's thanks to Jesus we have the will to want change. It's thanks to His death we have forgiveness. It's thanks to our Father God for eternal guidance....as much as we want it....as much as we need it.
The problem? We don't need to go through constant guilt trips about what we could have done....that's not to say we should take advantage of this! No; it's just that we have the freedom to bear nothing after...being...shall we say with God. Jesus' death forgave us of every wrong....and that is what grants us freedom. His love....surpasses every bit of knowledge. And when we find the strain of this world to be overly consuming...it's then we find peace in Him. In the Father's Love.
"And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to which also you were called in one body; and be thankful." Col 3:15
That it's never too late...
Our naked eye sees the outer object. Our heart sees the circumstance inside and out.
It's thanks to Jesus we have the will to want change. It's thanks to His death we have forgiveness. It's thanks to our Father God for eternal guidance....as much as we want it....as much as we need it.
The problem? We don't need to go through constant guilt trips about what we could have done....that's not to say we should take advantage of this! No; it's just that we have the freedom to bear nothing after...being...shall we say with God. Jesus' death forgave us of every wrong....and that is what grants us freedom. His love....surpasses every bit of knowledge. And when we find the strain of this world to be overly consuming...it's then we find peace in Him. In the Father's Love.
"And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to which also you were called in one body; and be thankful." Col 3:15
Saturday, September 25, 2010
There May Be Pain in the Night....but Joy Comes in the Morning
=)
Nothing is impossible....
Days can go by where we think everything will just pile up to amount to absolutely nothing....
That's when the Big Guy upstairs reminds us everything happens for a reason.
Sure, certain circumstances happen because we make the wrong choices....but all in all God's just stickin' the broken pottery pieces of our life back together to make something as perfect as possible....
and we know that if it's God who's making it, obviously it's gonna look beautiful....
Nothing is impossible....
Days can go by where we think everything will just pile up to amount to absolutely nothing....
That's when the Big Guy upstairs reminds us everything happens for a reason.
Sure, certain circumstances happen because we make the wrong choices....but all in all God's just stickin' the broken pottery pieces of our life back together to make something as perfect as possible....
and we know that if it's God who's making it, obviously it's gonna look beautiful....
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